they're goin' down!!! (don't read if you can't take self-pity)
shit.
i mean, shoot.
my surgery is in 12 hours and 43 minutes.
shit.
now, i'm nervous. i am home alone and can only think of the horrid things that are going to happen.
such as:
1. i will be the first woman ever to die from a breast reduction.
2. my boobs will be really ugly after surgery (i saw some pix of other breasts after redux and was kinda grossed out).
3. my back won't get better, it will get worse.
4. i'm going to get an infection (i usually do).
i actually cried as my friend was taking my son to stay at her house for the night.
my thoughts were, "what if i die and never see him again?."
so melodramatic!!!
well, friends ... in all likelihood, i'm sure things will be fine. on 9/23/05 at 7:30 am, i will be on an operating table with my chest being cut apart. please pray if you like - i would appreciate it.
by-the-way, should this 16 oz. budweiser in a can calm my frayed nerves? please advise.
and for all you "by-the-book" people - i can drink or eat until midnight, ok? (but i will stop after this one beer).
posted by mama2duke&beck at 6:46 PM
2 Comments:
great.
i post about my nerves and i get a comment from something about dating.
huh.
Girlie- I went through the same nerves (only without the kid thing) when I had my nose fixed. I knew deep down in the long run it would all work out to be much much better in my life, but I'd never ever had surgery before. I'm sure by now you are looking back on it all and seeing how bad it wasn't. (though don't ask me to go under the knife again). I'm so glad that modern medicine can help to ease your pains. I'm sure you'll be as beautiful as ever once everything heals. :)
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